It is one of those days...when energy is low and I feel like I just want to vegetate. Instead I woke up early, took care of you both and went to work like a responsible adult. But at work, my mind is not where it should be. Basically, I am moping around.
I know the reason for it. Usually, I do not let things bother me , but this time circumstances just make me go - "Not again, Give me a break..."
As I am feeling sucky ( I don't want to use the term depressed loosely because what I am feeling is just a bad day or bad week), I have a new feeling creeping up - Guilt!
What? I am the queen of no guilt, but I feel guilty for moping around. I just looked around and I feel the privilege oozing out of my surroundings and I feel guilty for feeling bad. The healthy gorgeous family, a super supportive spouse, career that I am proud of, my head says - "What is wrong with you? You have everything and you still mop around".
I tried to shake away my low energy, but it just won't go away. Now the guilt is getting bigger because my life is pretty good. So why this blue...After some thought, I have decided to get away with the guilt. Sure, my life is awesome in general, but today I am not feeling it. This week has been a low energy week with one person or another trying to suck my energy.
So I have given permission to mop around this whole week. I can complain in my head all I want and enjoy being sucky without the feeling of guilt. But then come Saturday and I am completely going to tune out the negative energy.
So my new tactic is to allow myself to complain about things couple of days a month. The rest of the month is to be back to my happy self where I am the queen of sunshine!!
I will let you know if this trick actually works...
I know the reason for it. Usually, I do not let things bother me , but this time circumstances just make me go - "Not again, Give me a break..."
As I am feeling sucky ( I don't want to use the term depressed loosely because what I am feeling is just a bad day or bad week), I have a new feeling creeping up - Guilt!
What? I am the queen of no guilt, but I feel guilty for moping around. I just looked around and I feel the privilege oozing out of my surroundings and I feel guilty for feeling bad. The healthy gorgeous family, a super supportive spouse, career that I am proud of, my head says - "What is wrong with you? You have everything and you still mop around".
I tried to shake away my low energy, but it just won't go away. Now the guilt is getting bigger because my life is pretty good. So why this blue...After some thought, I have decided to get away with the guilt. Sure, my life is awesome in general, but today I am not feeling it. This week has been a low energy week with one person or another trying to suck my energy.
So I have given permission to mop around this whole week. I can complain in my head all I want and enjoy being sucky without the feeling of guilt. But then come Saturday and I am completely going to tune out the negative energy.
So my new tactic is to allow myself to complain about things couple of days a month. The rest of the month is to be back to my happy self where I am the queen of sunshine!!
I will let you know if this trick actually works...
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