Magical kisses, not forever…

When you were 2 and 3, if you had a booboo, all I had to do was hold you and kiss the spot that hurts. Your face instantly transforms, I see relief, your body relaxes and I may even get a little smile. I ask you, " How does it feel now", and you answer much better. I used to laugh internally thinking how silly this all this, but of course I loved my mom super powers.

Last month, you fell and I did the same – scooped you up and gave you a kiss. You did relax, but after the kiss said – “It doesn’t make me better, maybe I need a band aid”. I didn’t realize when my magical kisses lost their power and practicality took over. I was left wondering when was the last time the kisses worked.

I was talking to my colleague about Easter egg hunt and she was reminiscing about how her children loved it and she said – I don’t remember when they stopped liking it, we don’t do it anymore.

The little one is 1 now and has a very good schedule for sleeping. The last time I held him and rocked him to sleep was few months ago and only because he was sick. Otherwise, I just put him in the crib and say sleep tight. But last week he was a little fussy as we were out and we didn’t follow the routine perfectly. So I took him to the rocking chair and sang – Soja chanda. He snuggled and went to sleep in my arms. I enjoyed every moment and consciously want to remember this lovely moment, the way he snuggled and found the perfect spot on my lap, how he relaxed and went to sleep, the soft rise and fall of his chest.

Then in the afternoon, big sister was sleepy but as usual didn’t want to. I asked her, do you want me to put you to sleep like little brother. To my surprise, you agreed. I held you in the rocking chair and sang Soja Chanda and viola! you slept too. I felt like my magic powers are back.

I know my magic powers will not last forever and they will change over time. I promise to hold on to them as long as I can and more importantly cherish them while they last!